Got a text from my aunt about a book her friend is wanting to make. They were wanting me to illustrate it. I mean right now it's just a fun idea. I don't think this is a huge gig but it may be exactly the kick in the butt I need to not only get drawing more, but drawing higher quality... and perhaps network myself a little better. Any publicity is good publicity. I was supposed to do some photo manipulation stuff for a model friend of mine but that may not happen. Not sure that was the path I was wanting to head anyway, but I'm scrapping for opportunities. It's kind of hard to get anyone to want you to do something if you have nothing to show them. I know I can do much better then my current gallery but for some reason I haven't. It's just years of habit I suppose, trying to hop back on this drawing bandwagon after having not pushed myself to draw since highschool...
BUT DAMNIT I WANT THIS. If I want this I should try harder and not be my lazy highschool self.
My current living situation is bothering me, I wanna get my ass into the active world and away from the stagnant accepting lifestyle I'm surrounded by. Anyway, I'm setting a personal goal on top of aforementioned things to get a realism piece in the works. Perhaps I will feel perfectionist and do better at something like that as opposed to things I make up.
Feeling very motivated at the moment.. but not artistic. I blame work for that one, it always drowns out the good juices. What's a motivated person to do at 2am then write a journal and get mad at the world?
!!FREE LLAMAS!! 
